watched The Simpsons ,

lost my wallet.

screw it .

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"bestfriend"

it's been more than a year,

and you've changed.

how come you could turn your back

on your "friends",

i really dont know.

i really don't know if you even feel

bad about it all .

you probably don't.

it isn't nice to use "friends",

run off with new ones,

then add in a little backstabbing

to end it all .
what happened to you?

what happened to the girl

i used to be bestfriends with?

i thought i knew you,

but i was wrong wasn't i?

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i'm in the business of misery,

let's take it from the top.

she's got a body like an hourglass &it's ticking like a clock .

it's a matter of time before we all run out...

when i thought he was mine,

she caught him by the mouth .

i waited eight long months,

&she finally set him free .

i told him i can't lie,

he was the only one for me .

two weeks &we had caught on fire.

she's got it out for me,

but i wear the biggest smile.

whoa,

i never meant to brag but i've got him where i want him now .

it was never my intention to brag,

or to steal it all away from you now.

but God does it feel so good,

'cause i've got him where i want him now .

&if you could then you know you would.

second chances they don't ever matter,

people never change.

once a whore,

you're nothing more,

i'm sorry that'll never change .

&about forgiveness,

we're both supposed to have exchanged.

i'm sorry honey,

but I'm passing up,

now look this way!

well there's a million other girls who do it just like you,

looking as innocent as possible to get to

who they want and what they like,

it's easy if you do it right .

well i refuse, i refuse!

i watched his wildest dreams come true,

not one of them involving you .

just watch my wildest dreams come true,

not one of them involving you.

i never meant to brag but it just feels so good .

--

I want to be beautiful.

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MOVING TO THE HOOD,

for real .

--

we've come a long way,

the boy next door.

and the girl who's had too many chances.

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my new beau :D

got my eye infected last week,

and it got reeeeally bad on friday.

i swear to god,

it was like i had half a golf ball stuck

under my eye lid.

and it hurt fucking alot just to blink!

went to the eye specialist,

and he said i might have to go for an op.

but then he took a look at my eye

and he practically freaked,

cause it was too swollen to do anything.

so he changed my anti-biotics again.

by the following morning

it was so much better!

:D

if the medicine hadn't worked ,

i'd have to cut open my eyelid :/

so anyways,

towned with ben and clare last night.

we were supposed to watch

Harry Potter (squeals),

but there were no tickets.

i can safely say i have been a total

Harry Potter freak since i was like 8.

no, really.

i started reading the books then.

and now everyone's watched

Harry Potter except me ):

i should seriously shoot myself.

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IT'S NOT TOO LATE,

MAKE POVERTY HISTORY.

The image presaged no celebration:

a child barely alive, a vulture so eager for carrion.

Kevin Carter a photographer,

had taken a trip to famine-

stricken Sudan in 1994.

upon landing,

he immediately started to snap

pictures of famine victims.

seeking relief from the sight of masses of

people starving to death,

he walked into an open bush .

he heard a soft, high-pitched whimpering

and saw a tiny girl trying to make her

way to a United Nations feeding center.

as he crouched to photograph her,

a vulture landed in view.

careful not to disturb the bird,

he positioned himself for the best possible image .

after he took his photograph,

he chased the bird away and watched ,

as the little girl resumed her struggle.

afterward he sat under a tree,

lit a cigarette, talked to God and cried.

IT'S TIME TO DO YOUR PART

FOR HUMANITY .

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you're a getaway car, a rush of blood to the head.

but me?

i'm just the covers on top of your bed.

you steer away in a rear view mirror,

you make my head swim .

i keep you warm &won't ask you where you've been.

strike us like matches,

cause' everyone deserves the flames .

we only do it for the scars &stories, not the fame.

at least everyone is trying,

everyone is shining .

everyone deserves the flames but it's such a shame.

it's such a shame .

i'm the first kid to write of hearts, lies, &friends.

&i am sorry my conscience called in sick again,

i've got arrogance down to a science .

they call kids like us vicious &carved out of stone,

but for what we've become,

we just feel more alone .

i always weigh what i've got against what i've left .

so progress report:

i am missing you to death .

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